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The Great Sugar Fast of 2001: Day 2

Another successful day. This is easier than I thought it would be. Although I'm not PMSing so I don't have those cravings.

I'm not noticing any magical healthful effects, no feeling of wellbeing or vigor, no increased energy. Feh.

Clues for the Clueless

  1. If you're sending your resume to a company by email, don't just send email with nothing in the body, a subject of "CV", and an attached file called "CV3.doc". If I don't know what you're applying for, I won't open your attachment. Also the fact that you don't know how to send decent email suggests to me that you're an idiot. We don't hire idiots.
  2. Don't apply for a job that you're completely unqualified for just because you're desperate. I'm not going to be fooled into thinking you're qualified because you've cut and pasted the job title into your "objectives" statement.

November 27, 2001: It got sucked into the TV

Not much to say today but I want to put something up because I like my sidebars. Entry with sidebars and no body is lame.

Talked some more about quitting. Another person at work is getting tired of the place too. The only reason she shows up is our co-workers. Neither of us can seem to find the energy to care any more. She's thinking of finding part time work and devoting the rest of her time to developing her interior design business. I'm thinking of casting the net and seeing if I can find something interesting and new.

We were notified today, though, that we're in an insider trading freeze; no buying or selling stocks. That means I can't cash out my stock options until January, so I can't quit until then. I think I'm okay with that, though. I didn't really want to search for a job over Christmas, for one thing. And the wait will give me a chance to cool off and think it over.

I realized a couple of weeks ago that I could get laid off. I'd been resting on my laurels a bit, thinking I was indispensable, until one day one of our more clueless sales people managed to walk a customer through a problem install. I suddenly realized that if the sales people can handle the easy technical support issues, the consultants can handle the hard stuff, and our network admin (who is somewhat underworked) could handle the stuff in the middle, they wouldn't need me. I'm so not indispensable. I don't know whether management knows it though.

In the meantime I'm making myself useful by helping with documentation. I may be thinking about leaving, but I want to do it on my terms, not theirs!

My voice lesson today brought me down somewhat from my "I am a musical genius" high of yesterday. There are some things I just can't do yet. I bet you if I practiced I could do them sooner. I bet I could.

Now if only I would practice. It shouldn't be hard; just twenty minutes a day, that's all it would take to improve my technique. But I don't do it.

And it's not because I don't have time. Hah. I have lots of time. I spend all kinds of time playing on the Internet, watching TV, reading magazines. I do not lead a busy life. I just, somehow, don't get to it.

Actually, I barely do anything after I get home from work. When I get home I'm too hungry to think about anything except getting supper. So I cook something, then sit down to eat in front of the television. Then something good is on. Then I flip to see if there's anything else on. Oh, here's something. It's not as good, but... Oh, and now that other show that I watch sometimes is on. And look, it's 10:30. I should finish my entry, and go to bed.

What happened to my evening? It got sucked into the TV, that's what.

I wonder if I could rescue my evenings by eating dinner at the dining table instead of in front of the television. Maybe I'll try that tomorrow. I'll let you know how it goes.

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